PH∇NK

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2012-01-28T19:14:00.007+08:00

2012-01-08T18:28:00.003+08:00

1: What was the first thing you did in 2012?

Drink to the new year.

2: Do you think we will really all die this year?

No.

3: What was the best thing that happened to you in 2011?

That'll be my secret.

4: What was the worst?

Nothing too bad happened.

5: How many people did you kiss in 2011?

2? I'm not sure.

6: What do you want to happen this year?

Whatever happens happens, yeah?

7: What are your 2012 goals?

Learn to cook, get my license, read more books.

8: Tell us something that we might find surprising about your 2011.

I'll just give you a clue. What I thought was forever gone, wasn't.

9: What do you want to happen this year that didn’t happen last year?

As I said, whatever happens happens.

10: Have you made any new friends yet this year?

Yes!

11: Is there any body modifications planned for this year? (i.e. piercings, tattoos, hair dye, etc)

Tattoo maybe. Didn't know hair dye was a body mod.

12: What was the first thing you bought in 2012?

Cigarettes.

13: What did you hate about 2011?

My crushing depression.

14: What was the most interesting thing to happen this year so far?

I was told that someone out there actually follows my life quite closely. Lol.

15: Tell us a secret about 2011.

It was pretty awesome. Shh.

Personal

16: What is your name, age and location?

Shar, 20, singapore.

17: What is your hair colour?

Black by nature. Brown by chemicals.

18: What is your eye colour?

Dark brown.

19: What is your heritage?

Nepali-indian.

20: Are you single this year?

Yur.

21: Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

See how it goes.

22: How many siblings do you have?

1/2. Part sister, part demon.

23: Will you be having any more?

No.

24: Any children of your own?

No..

25: Will you be getting married this year?

No...

26: What is your sexual orientation?

Gay as unicorn's rainbow vomit.

27: What is your height?

160cm.

28: What is your weight?

45kg.

TMI

29: Have you had sex so far this year?

Hahahahaha.

30: How many times did you have sex last year?

How many times do you think I had sex last year?

31: Do you shave your neither regions?

I don't know, do I?

32: What’s your dirtiest secret?

I have raunchy sex fantasies about somebody all the damn long day.

33: Do you shower every day?

Yeah 'cept days that I hibernate.

34: Do you masturbate?

No.

35: Do you drink/smoke?

Yeah.

36: Do you do drugs?

No.

37: Did you do anything illegal in 2011 and if so, what was it?

Nope.

38: What about 2012?

I don't like this place called jail.

39: How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

15 mins.

✌: Share a childhood memory.

When I was younger my dad was playing with me by throwing me up into the air and catching me, but accidentally threw me backwards into the wall.

♡: Make a confession.

I still have feelings for someone I used to be with. 'Cept she will never guess.

❁: Share one of your insecurities.

That the people I date/hang out with would rather be hanging out with someone better or more fun.

✓: Share something about yourself others might think is weird.

I have mad ocd for word neatness. Sentences that look odd piss me off.

☹: Share a turn off.

Neediness.

☀: Share a turn on.

Humility.

♬: Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past.

Bloc party- I still remember. Corny, whatever.

♧: Share the story of something that makes you smile.

Once upon a time, in a village not far away, there was a man named Baskin Robbins who set up an ice cream parlor. He spent days in his hut thinking up recipes. One day he came up with the brilliant idea of cotton candy ice cream and I got to know about it and smiled. The end.

☆: Share one thing you think about before you go to bed at night.

How cute simba is.

☮: Share a relationship story.

No thanks. But there was this one relationship... I was so happy. Haha I miss that.

2011-12-25T06:10:00.002+08:00

Managed to get these items for less than 200 bucks in the states.

Coach wallet

Aldo moccasins

Urban Outfitters shirt

2x DKNY tees

San Francisco pullover

What a steal.

2011-12-02T04:19:00.002+08:00

As undeserving of it as you were, I loved you. And I will never regret a moment of it. Without you I wouldn't have grown as a human being. Wouldn't have known what its like to truly love somebody, feel the stinging pain of betrayal and heartbreak, understood what forgiveness really means. I'm pretty certain for me, you were that one person who comes into your life and causes you to change. Sometimes for the better. But you weren't meant to stay, like they always aren't. I know I couldn't watch my mouth and I pray that the day will never come, but if it does, I want you to know that everything I said was out of hurt and that I will always care about you no matter what comes out of my mouth. I was out of line, i'm sorry but I don't want to lose you again. Humans make mistakes. Especially when hurt and in an inebriated state. But if the day comes I hope you still have it in your heart to forgive me.

Until then I think i'll remain alone for awhile. With friends betraying my trust every time I turn my head, and just fucking filthy people I have to deal with every day. I think it'll be awhile til I can learn to trust another human being much less bring myself to love them.

2011-11-15T03:06:00.014+08:00

Been overly emotional the past few days. Hoping its just post menstrual fucked up hormones syndrome. Y'know how they say everything happens for a reason? Sometimes you don't find out that reason for years. But eventually it will come around and you will look back on why things couldn't work out the way you wanted them to. I see it now and yeah I was lucky to have dodged that bullet. I could have ended up being your bitch and being played the fool right at this moment. You make someone fall hard and make them feel special, then pull your bullshit act behind their back and the poor idiot can't see it because you already have them thinking they're in love with you. But sometimes it still doesn't feel that way. Sometimes I really miss you (or who I thought you were) and I still feel like I lost something good; and it really pisses me off wondering if I meant anything to you at all. Because the sadness in your eyes felt real at one point. Guess that's something i'll never know. Even then it was all so fucking temporary. We could've worked towards something better if you'd given me the chance but you just couldn't let go of your damn pride. What angers me most is how you could still have the nerve to play the victim, making me feel guilty for months, when you had done so much worse to me knowing how I felt about you. I guess I just happened to REALLY love the one person who deserved it the least, but it was an experience, and I know i'll never do it again. YOU need to stop treating people with so much disrespect dude seriously, you're chocking up a lot of karma for yourself. For all the hurt you've caused me and the way you're treating her like your dog right now, I hope one day justice hits you in the face. Hard.

2011-11-02T02:14:00.008+08:00

I keep having these relapses and going over things in my mind that once made me so mad. I can't completely forgive you. It has never been a strong point for me. Most times i'm glad there's no beef between us and i'm happy when you're around but its the days that you're not that my mind tends to wander. And you're not around alot. It goes back to the times you hurt me and showed no remorse, the days you chose to be selfish leaving me to question how someone you cared about so much could do that to you. It almost makes me want to hurt you. And if not me, I want to watch you fall apart by someone else's hand. I've seen the look in your eyes many times and trust me I knew how you felt. As much as I wanted to act on it, I just saw the thrill in not giving you what you wanted. I was basking in the pleasure of having the tables turned. But even despite all that, its not enough. I don't think any form of karma would justify my hurt and anger. I mean how does anything justify the actions of someone who once held a big piece of your heart, and that a part of it will always belong to, who hurt you so much? Its going to fester in the back of your mind, crawl out when you least expect and haunt you over and over for the rest of your life. Sometimes I feel like the fakest plastic for being nice to you while harboring all these thoughts. Its just my stupid nature. I'm sorry i'm a revengeful person but its part of who I am and I wish I could change, but its not that easy. The most I can do is hide my feelings, come here and spill them all out so as not to ruin us again.

2011-08-14T03:58:00.002+08:00

Love you, miss you guys for life ❤

2011-06-11T00:14:00.001+08:00

This is going to sound very contradictory to my last post, seeing as I went on a long rant about how I don't need anyone, but I really appreciate everyone who's in my life right now. Like I really thank God that I met each and every one of you. Whether we're still close or not, we've shared some pretty great memories, and at the end of the day memories are all we have. To me, it always seems like people don't care and that's why I distance myself from them. But i'm beginning to realize maybe its because I don't give them a chance; maybe to them I don't care. I dreamt of someone last night; someone who used to be a good friend of mine. I don't think you'll ever know how much I miss you. We had our disagreements but I know you cared, even if you had a patronizing way of showing it. Once I thought of picking up the phone and giving you a call, to ask if you wanted to go for a drink; just put everything behind us and be buddies again like we used to. Then I remember how I deleted your no. out of anger all those months ago. And I don't know if you even use the same one anymore. But regrets are useless. I guess sometimes the most important people in your life are meant to walk away so that you learn something from it and evolve as a person. I know if you were here right now I would appreciate you so much more. Maybe in the future if our paths cross we can be close again but until then i'm not going to take any of my friends for granted.

2011-05-25T06:19:00.009+08:00

This is why I don't like getting close to people. Being "friends". Two in a night, can you believe it. Somebody give these two awards for their incredible timing to be douchebags. Ok one's just being a child. But you? I thought you understood me. Its so hard to find someone who does and i've done nothing but be a friend to you. I've always listened to you, met you when you needed to talk, cheered you up, given you advice. Even though I could sense you weren't going to do the same for me a long time ago. I mean when you regard someone as your friend you invest in the relationship not to expect something in return right? I may not be the warmest, most comforting person but I really am sympathetic; especially when you're going through something i've been through. I can't help the way I deal with my own problems, because I grew up that way, so try to understand where i'm coming from when I don't sugarcoat things for you and call you up every 5 mins to see how you're doing. I'm sorry but your problems aren't the beginning and end of the world. But not only do you prove me right, you turn around and bite me in the ass as well. I swear to god I would've punched you in the face when you said everything you did. Don't assume you know anything about me and what i've been through cause I only trust a few people with that. Only they can understand the disappointment and shock I felt, cause where the hell were you when I really needed help? From what I remember, only when I picked myself up and changed you showed yourself more. And you dare bring up one of the touchiest subjects in my life saying I don't understand how you feel? Eff that.

Whoa angsty angst. I seriously need to reconsider who I call my good friends. Right now there're only 3 people I never want to lose: my sis, my best friend and my childhood pillar of strength. The rest may be party buddies and stuff but I think the less people you expose yourself to in life the better.

2011-05-01T17:37:00.010+08:00

I used to not know what I wanted in relationships and mostly just passed my time, not really giving a fuck whether it worked out or not. But now I know exactly what I want. I want to be in it in the long run. I want my s/o to be my other best friend. I want to stay up late at night having conversations that never end even if they don't make any sense. I want to be comfortable acting completely unglam. I want someone who will mean so much to me that even though I hate talking on the phone, I would still call just to hear their voice. Someone whom I could spend every single day with if possible. Someone I wouldn't mind being completely vulnerable with. I want to always know what's on their mind, know them inside out and would want them to be the only person who knows me inside out. I want them to be the only person I want to bring home because I hate having people invade my privacy and home is on top of that list. I want to just cuddle up and have movie marathons, just us. I want to flood their room with my letters and presents and whatever else. Fuck I want their bottom drawer to be full of my stuff; or my bottom drawer full of theirs, where it looks like we're practically living together. There are so many more things I know I want but its fucking tragic because right now I only want all of this with you.

Justin Biebs/Maroon 5

2011-04-26T12:06:00.000+08:00

BEST TWO NIGHTS OF MY LIFE SO FAR. I feel like such a blessed child. Especially since I only managed to score M5 tickets bloody last minute on the day itself! Plus i've fallen in love with the indoor stadium atmosphere ever since Jbiebs. Next up either Hurts or Avril Lavigne. We'll seeee.

2011-04-15T04:24:00.003+08:00

I. fucking. love. this. song. And just look at her my god she's fucking sexy. Brb jizzing pants.

Freaky friday

2011-04-09T15:14:00.007+08:00

Last night was downright awesome in my opinion. I'm happygirl91 now. Looking forward to more partayes in the future!

2011-04-07T02:16:00.007+08:00

Last one ok. I know i'm falling off the brink into lameness already but these are too addictive I just have to itchy fingers and do one.

1. Do you usually sleep with your closet door open or closed?

I don't have a closet I have a chest of drawers thank god

2. Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotels?

No but my mom does

3. Have you ever 'done it' in a hotel room?

Not yet

4. Where is your next vacation?

Bali hopefully?

5. Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

Now why the fuck would I do that?

6. Who do you think reads these?

God. Idk whoever reads these

7. Do you have a calendar in your room?

Nope

8. Where are you?

Home

9. What's your plan for the day?

Its 1am I plan to sleep

10. Are you reading any books right now?

Yeah gerald's game but I can't seem to finish it cause i've ADD

11. Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

I'm ADD not OCD

12. Have you ever peed in the woods?

No sir

13. Do you ever dance even if there's no music playing?

There's always music playing in my head

14. Do you chew your pens and pencils?

Gross no

15. What is your "Song of the Week"?

Stromae's house llelujah. Replay button got raped

16. Is it okay for guys to wear pink?

17. Do you still watch cartoons?

Nope they make me sleepy

18. Whats your favorite love movie?

100 days of summer. But "its not a love story its a story about love" rmb?

19. What do you drink with dinner?

Water

20. What do you dip Chicken Nuggets in?

Curry sawce

21. What is your favorite food/cuisine?

Italian. Mother of all foods

22. What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Women in trouble. Esp the scene where emmanuelle is at the bar smiling her gorgeous smile and shaking her hair loose from that ugly fuck wig which idk why she was wearing. Just foam at the mouth only

23. Last person you hugged/kissed?

Autism koh

24. Were you ever a boy/girl scout?

Hell no

25. Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

Sure if they paid me so that i'd never have to work again

26. When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

January. Then I crushed and burnt it

27. Do you keep in touch with exes/ex-dates?

Nope

28. What do you think when someone mentions an ex/ex-date's name?

Nothing

29. Is there an ex/ex-date you have had bad experiences with?

Mhm

30. What would you do if this person appears at your doorstep right now begging to get back together?

Lolll call IMH

31. Favorite kind of sandwich?

Smoked turkey with brie. And the chapalang sandwiches I make for myself at my workplace. Seriously just pile shit on and top it off with tomato pesto. Fucking yummy

32. Best thing to eat for breakfast?

My neighbor's parrot

33. What is your usual bedtime?

On a working day 12am. On an off day 3-4am

34. Are you lazy?

Nope i'm always the one tidying up after everyone

35. When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?

When I was a kid I didn't even know what was halloween

36. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

Why read magazines when you have the internet?

37. Which are better, legos or lincoln logs?

Lego. Wtf even is a lincoln log

38. Are you stubborn?

Sometimes

39. Who is better... Leno or Letterman?

Shar

40. Ever watch soap operas?

Yeah they make my eyes sting with tears of boredom

41. Afraid of heights?

Bloody hell yes

42. Ever kissed someone of the same sex?

Always

43. Ever cried because you were so happy?

Never cried but I could feel happy tears welling up once

44. Ever been in love?

Yeah

45. Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

Nope crying and fits aren't my thing i'm not sonya rai

46. Do you miss anyone right now?

Yeah. I remembered this game we used to play all the time and I went to play it just now but its not the same

2011-03-30T21:16:00.003+08:00

Life's been pretty great. Beginning to know how it feels like to live for myself again and not anyone else. Its been a long time since i've felt that way but I can tell i'm motivating myself now. Exercise, diets, making an effort to look good. In fact I feel pretty fucking fantastic lol. Serotonin. From now on i'm not gonna think so much, turn down any chances because of one person, limit myself to anything or anyone. April party is a good start. So eggcited. Gonna be making jello shots at my place and the skittles vodka at Jan's. Haha eggcites!

2011-03-17T00:25:00.007+08:00

Threesome? Yes please.

2011-03-14T18:50:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday Hwee!

2011-03-13T16:28:00.004+08:00

Oh my god this is so bloody sad, i'm tearing up.

Brittany belongs with Santana damn it.

2011-03-08T12:06:00.039+08:00

Ok 3 things. Firstly... I'M DAMN BLOODY ELATED ECSTATIC EUPHORIC I GOT TO MEET MY GIRLS LAST NIGHT. Been 3 months since I saw them last I think. Headed to George's for beers and to just catch up. Btw if you ever end up in a bar or pub that serves a beer tower, order it. Not only is it worth it but the feeling is awesome like floating through space. Secondly, april 8th is exactly only one month away. This year's party is going to be even better than the last, I swear. Everyone that I want there is gonna be there, Janelle's friends are gonna be there (which means pretty drunk chicks all over the place), the bungalow is HUGE, there'll be beer pong, sick lighting and soundsystem and of course tons of alcohol. I'm so excited I can pee my pants. And lastly, this is a bit random, but I realized one thing after last night. I.d.t.I.l.y.a.m.a.

2011-02-26T21:04:00.009+08:00

You know that feeling when someone feels a certain way about you, and you feel that way about them too, but you're spending your time and energy on the wrong person? Then as time passes you realize "oh damn I really miss her. Maybe I should've given her a chance". I felt that today. I was listening to "Cool" on my ipod and it made me think of this person. But just as the song implies, i'm happy you moved on and found the right guy and despite everything I put you through in our last year, i'm glad we're still friends. I'm glad I can still text you and get a reply. I'm glad you send me texts out of the blue too; at least I know I haven't been forgotten. And lastly, i'm glad i'll be seeing you again soon. Speaking of that, we're throwing another party in april again this year. It could be the anniversary of our first april party! :)

2011-02-26T02:12:00.000+08:00

She's so pretty :)

2011-02-24T19:46:00.000+08:00

Ok I feel so god damn proud of myself. 4th day on the job and i've already built up barista and sandwich artistry skills! Lol and I thought I was a slow learner. But i'm major tired, my feet burn and I miss all my friends. Hardly have any time to catch up with you guys. Can't wait to meet up with Rach and the rest on mon and zouk next wed. Excites excites. I think we're getting a bottle so if any of you other people want to come and drink at riverside first, come join :) Yay.

2011-02-18T17:17:00.017+08:00

I don't know what to do. A little harmless flirting with people that you see potential with never hurts anyone, but i'm also fucking terrified of opening up to someone in that way again. Its even more stressful when people are always nudging you in someone else's direction. Someone you don't see as anything else but a friend. Yea that person may have liked you for a long time, yea they may be good for you, it may be nice to have that person's attention, but feelings really really can't be forced. And i'm not the kind of person who leads people on. Please don't take this the wrong way, that person is an awesome square root to the power of 1000 friend and maybe i'm just being picky right now but I don't want to settle for convenience. I'm waiting for someone who will really blow me away. That's what she said. Anyway i've been permanently posted to cedele at vivo. Want free food come and look for me ;)

2011-02-18T00:52:00.001+08:00

MIRACLE.

Butter CNY Eve!

2011-02-07T03:48:00.011+08:00

2011-02-01T23:36:00.004+08:00

I swear this girl looks exactly like isabell from this angle. Anyway this week has been pretty busy. Running around dropping resumes, poly appeals etc. Got the job at zirca in the end. Can't wait to start! Guys come visit me :)

2011-01-18T04:09:00.006+08:00

Mental. Orgasm. I want to clone her and marry the clone and artificially inseminate it and make about 1 million little god's gift on earth babies.

2011-01-07T00:37:00.002+08:00

I wanted to type something here but my brain isn't functioning.

New year's eve!

2011-01-02T01:51:00.001+08:00

Thanks so much for coming down guys. Those of you who stayed for countdown, those who came after, everyone. Best NYE i've had in years. 2011 is gonna be a good year yeah!

2010-12-29T15:04:00.000+08:00

Everyone seems to be making playlists of their favorite music in 2010, so here's mine:

Vietnam trip!

2010-12-26T23:57:00.002+08:00

Lol.

There's more photos to upload but i'm lazy and down with the flu again. On the bright side, i have loads of time to watch all my movies with emmanuelle chriqui in it. I went to download almost all of them! Sigh. I'm going to marry that woman someday. In my own mind. And my NYE's party is only 5 days away. Can't wait can't wait can't wait.

2010-12-04T14:54:00.005+08:00

Its pretty damn funny how I went from drunkard to taking care of drunks in like what 2 weeks? Haha. I'm proud of myself. My discipline plus tolerance is going up. But it was a bitch okay I swear. Now I know how you people feel. I had to stay sober for big hulking guys last night. Scary aggressive like fuck. But I had fun! Anyway, I think we're booking a hotel for a new year's eve party. Nothing set in stone yet but I do hope it happens!

2010-11-23T05:47:00.012+08:00

I miss these guys man. And the rest that were there :( That night was epic though the hangover was a nightmare.

2010-11-19T19:54:00.003+08:00

This is why I love the independent stuff

2010-11-17T00:28:00.008+08:00

I think I need to clean up my act and start over

What do you think?

2010-11-05T02:20:00.005+08:00

Thanks guys, for the wishes and all. Really appreciate. Especially those of you I haven't heard from in awhile. I'm feeling fucking good right now :) How nice if I could feel like this more often.

2010-11-02T01:59:00.001+08:00

Why can't I express myself properly?

Stromae

2010-10-09T21:04:00.004+08:00

Fucking love this dude. Check out his single "Alors on dans" (Gilbert Forte remix).

2010-09-04T21:59:00.001+08:00

Fun fun fun.

2010-08-24T19:53:00.007+08:00

Crazy week. Ben's place for drinking night, barrage for alcohol picnic, Studio M with Ning, Eunice, Ben, Hwee and Ollie. I feel a beer belly coming on. Sigh. Times are pretty intense. I feel like i'm headed towards a breakdown. Everything seems so hard. Everyone has changed. What happened? Maybe i'm just in my PMS stage but life is getting to be a bitch lately. I'm starting to finally let go of the hope I placed in you. Maybe one day you will come around again, I don't know. I won't ever forget you though. And now strangely i'm starting to feel for her . How the fuck did that happen?

2010-08-20T01:27:00.003+08:00

First week of lessons and i've only attended one class because I find it impossible to wake up. How do you people who sleep 3-4 hours a day get your ass up and go to school? Seriously. I lack so much discipline its disgusting. Anyway i've entered school this year with a different mindset. Going to try to finish all my work before their deadlines so that i have more relaxation time. Don't want to burn out like last year. I'm also considering a wider range of core subjects this time. Interior design... maybe communication design or management? I don't know. We'll see how it goes.

2010-08-03T17:16:00.007+08:00

I had a good end to my holidays. Headed to the hyped flea which was pathetic. Saw Karen there, wasted at 3 in the afternoon. I feel your pain bro. Please cheer up! Caught inception that night too. It was good but CONFUSING LIKE HELL. Headed to butter with Luce, Ben, Hwee and Ning after. Shuttling to zouk and then back to butter was a bitch. The night was fucking wasted I swear. Just crashed at Ben's place instead and ended up drinking and awesome stuff. Fun to the max. First day of school yesterday. It was so-so. Saw * twice. Daaaaaamn. If i didn't repeat i could see her more often. Seriously think she's the only reason i go to school for.

2010-07-30T04:15:00.003+08:00

Went back for orientation with nad today. God damn. Headed to Cuscaden later for drinks and to disturb Kelly. My stupid clumsy self tripped on the table and almost half a pint of beer went down my pants, shoes and the floor. Hahaha! Damn clumsy, cannot tank. Not the first time either. Last time we drank at Chips my elbow tipped the table and the pint fell. God, what an oaf. So school... I can only sum it up with one emotion. t(-.-t). Yup. I dont like the idea of repeating the year but oh well i brought it upon myself. Start anew. Maybe this time I wont make the same mistakes. New friends, new beginnings.

2010-07-26T23:20:00.014+08:00

Ladies night. Fingers crossed. Hope to see you there.

2010-07-25T06:10:00.006+08:00

Last night was pretty fucking brilliant! I had so much fun seriously. Busted my ankle pretty badly though. And had such a nasty hangover that lasted the whole of today. I think i've only slept about 5 hours in the past 2 days. So I just spent the whole night reading all my posts from 2-3 years ago. Its nice to look back on life once in awhile. I sounded so excited then! So much happier, ha. I want to try to be that person again. I'll try. I'm obviously not the same person I was, but my life seemed pretty great as compared. Oh well.

2010-07-08T21:26:00.007+08:00

Haha she looks like she's drowning. Anyway, i've been going through a pretty rough patch lately. Emotions running wild. Whenever you try to escape, theres always something there to draw you back. No matter how hard you try to evade it. What am I supposed to do? I don't want to have to pull away from someone just because they remind me of things I dont want to remember. But if it helps then maybe I should right? Nothing lasts forever anyway.

2010-07-05T03:06:00.009+08:00

Listening to College's "She never came back". Love electro house.

2010-07-03T16:12:00.004+08:00

HAHAHA!

Shots x3

2010-05-22T02:08:00.003+08:00

Spent last night at Play with Eunice, Chew, Ning, Ade, Gekming and friends. Super fun, awesome company. Definitely need more $ to keep up the lifestyle though. Cab ride back was a fucking bomb explosion. Woke up with a massive hangover this evening. Swear, my pee smelt like raw alcohol. Headed over to gardens after. I'm excited for Paddy's party tomorrow night! More booze and I get to see people I haven't seen in forever ✌

California girls, we're unforgettable

2010-05-16T01:47:00.008+08:00

Caught iron man 2 today. Wasn't that fantastic, but the effects and explosions got me. Next stop, the runaways! Kristen and Dakota for the win. Had lunch at Seoul garden after. I'm fucking full now. Headed to gardens in the evening, J's place then met Sonz and Sam again at night. But honestly the whole night I was just hoping to see you. Fuck I stared at every girl at gardens hoping it was you. Why? Cause I know you hang out there. Urgh.

2010-05-12T00:45:00.004+08:00

Fail.

2010-05-09T16:25:00.005+08:00

I love these two people. This week was pretty eventful. Few random outings here and there, Helipad with Chin and Luce, fri night. I'm satisfied. Headed over to Pan's last night for final destination, booze, cigarettes and late night HTHT's. Love you panda! Sorry for spamming your twitter and asking people to unfollow you. Going for mother's day dinner tonight, where I prob won't eat much cause I have the appetite of an anorexic bitch. Then Sentosa with Lasalle buddies tomorrow and drunk night part II with them again on wed. Life's awesome.

Bums

2010-05-02T18:45:00.002+08:00

Saturday, picnic at ECP plus Changi boardwalk plus sunset by the jetty was awesome! Not forgetting riding in Gurls' car, blasting bass super loud with the windows rolled down. Every time I meet these guys, we always end up planning for another party. We'll see. Ha, love you guys forever and ever. Can't wait for our next outing! Caught shutter island last night as well. Fucking confusing show that one. I don't like getting my brain messed up. Wanna catch bounty hunter and iron man 2 next. Who wants to date me!

2010-04-30T17:20:00.011+08:00

Need job

2010-04-19T23:45:00.005+08:00

Sup folks. So the last week has pretty much consisted of me chained to the laptop all day. Excluding dinner with my fav threesome, drunk night II and the chalet/bbq at Loyang. I actually kinda miss these days where I just lie around doing nothing. Just go on facebook, twitter, watch movies. No worries. Nothing on my mind. Doesn't sound like alot of fun but its hands down better than when you have no time for yourself. I've also been throwing myself into tumblr alot. I'd like to thank my handful of followers. Started off with the idea that i'd never get followed, but you guys rock so hard. Love you, all 22 of you (edit 28/02/11: its 101 now. This is amazing!) :) Rest of you guys, follow if you have a tumblr! http://wheresyourheadat.tumblr.com.

Drunkfest

2010-04-14T14:47:00.013+08:00

Hey guys so the party last sat was great. A bit drama but still great nonetheless. Had fun. Thanks to all the people who came, love you all. 'Cept the fucking gatecrashers. It took awhile to kick in that I make my commutes with no music now. So i'm tryna get all my songs onto my retard memory card. Which, I hope, is big enough. Either way still had loads of fun that night. In the future we'll throw an even better one. Minus the drama.

2010-03-07T02:08:00.013+08:00

Love you guys so much words cant explain! This month has definitely been a rollercoaster ride. Most days were really really tough to get by but I did and now i'm in the best place i've been in months. Knowing you can think about someone who once hurt you so badly and not feel a thing is beyond awesome. Anyway assessment will be over this friday and the last gathering we have as a class is on the 12th. I'm gonna miss those guys! No joke. Its been an amazing 8 months knowing them. The thought of having to socialize and make new friends again is kinda irritating but I guess that's life. Then we've got the party to look forward to! I'm so damn excited for that. Guys please come if youre invited okay, it'll prob be the last time we can all hang out before everyone breaks off for school. Except yours truly who will be holidaying for 4 months. Muahaha.

2010-02-25T01:54:00.005+08:00

Hello, I know its been a while since I blogged a proper post. Dont blame me, blame tumblarity. I express everything in short random bursts now. So lets see, I spent today with azu, eunice and zabs. Bugis then zabs friend's tattoo place. Spent the whole afternoon and evening there. Gonna meet again soon and get another tattoo. Exciting SHIT. Hope my enthusiasm doesn't die down... damn excited. Steam. Including the fact there's no school tmrw.

Anyway, if you haven't already watched this (angry asian), you better go fucking watch it now cause you don't know what you're missing out on. I spent 6 mins and 41 secs of my life laughing and then another cause I went to rewind it. I swear I want to meet this dude, he's insane!

2010-02-19T01:10:00.007+08:00

Happy birthday charlotte!

How does being 19 feel old woman.

Anw i've been in a really pissy mood all day. A text msg totally ruined my afternoon and i've been dwelling on it. I know I shouldn't but I cant help feeling disappointed. You're so inconsiderate, it hurts. I hope someone breaks your heart real good one day so you know how it feels. Gotta be up early for ccs presentation tmrw and I cant sleep. Just kill me.

2010-02-16T17:17:00.003+08:00

YOU KNOW WHAT, I'M ALREADY EXCITED FOR THE PARTY IN APRIL. CAN'T WAIT TO PLAN SHIT WITH EUNICE. ITS GONNA BE SO AWESOME.

2010-02-14T03:19:00.004+08:00

Happy valentine's people :)

Hope you have a good one. I'll be spending it with awesome company and that's good enough for me. Anyway i'm getting lazy to update this space so i'll prob only do so when the mood strikes. You can stalk me on twitter. twitter.com/decibelweekend. Oh and pandora chew upload your birthday photos so I can dedicate yet another post to you!

2010-02-13T13:57:00.011+08:00

Deleted my archives because I don't want you to know what I think about you anymore. I am not putting myself in a position to be vulnerable. What's over is over, i'm done waiting around for something that won't happen. You aren't supposed to mean anything to me and i'm damn well not supposed to mean anything to you either.

2010-02-06T04:48:00.014+08:00

I wanna club now.

Hi baby, I love you

2010-02-02T20:57:00.009+08:00

Pandora chew got me fucking addicted to this song. And she wants another dedication so here's a really lousy one. I LOVE YOU BBG. You're such an awesome girlfriend. Even though this is damn short and stupid I know you're gonna go "aww" cause that's what moronic people do. Oh and I know my love is your drug, don't need to re-emphasize it. Haha miss you!

2010-01-28T00:51:00.033+08:00

Yesterday was awesome. Headed out for dinner and helipad with A and friends. Rooftop was a good chill out spot but the dance floor was closed so... Half dozen shooters, 2 jugs, mocking, heart to heart talk = awesome. Was fucking high but it was fun. True though, that people you don't know very well give you the best advice because they don't sugarcoat what they say. I like.

2010-01-21T18:43:00.010+08:00

2010-01-19T20:54:00.001+08:00

I deleted my previous post because i realize, i don't really want you. I did some thinking after what r said and i realized, its not YOU that i want. Its the feeling of someone caring for me and looking after me, and if possible loving me, that i want. I just used you as an outlet to direct all that feelings to. That's why i tell people i'm not over you, but deep down maybe i already know i am. I just cling on to the idea of you because after all we're better off feeling hurt than empty. I think you know what i mean.

You weren't that fantastic to begin with either. I needed someone to take my mind of someone who hurt me and you were there. But if it makes you feel better, i've done that to everyone i was ever with. Bad habits die hard and i'm self-centered like that :/ I mean i've never really "liked" anyone that much before but maybe i will in the future. Besides i think you're really boring now. I don't see what i saw in the person that i once used to be interested in. Maybe i was hung up over who i thought you were in my head, but you're turning out to be a huge disappointment. Sorry, but you really are. Harsh words but trueee. So yeah, i'm done with this. I don't think we'll speak again and it doesn't affect me so if you get the hint you won't come and talk to me or msn or through text or whatever. Okay bye, peace out.

2010-01-17T05:31:00.002+08:00

That's my child.

2010-01-14T13:17:00.002+08:00

I feel so guilty cause instead of finishing my assignments i'm reading these.

SGSecrets

Blogsecrets

2010-01-12T21:08:00.008+08:00

I was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken-- and i'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places.

2010-01-08T01:56:00.000+08:00

No matter how lost, heartbroken and depressed i get, these guys never fail to make me laugh. I thank God for these 3 (and you Gay!) because i really love them to bits :)

Spent the day with them today. Headed down for the NP open house to keep bhai company. Oh i saw my ex bestfriend on campus! I don't think she recognized me because we were bff's in primary school, when i was disturbingly guniang, but holy balls she's so god damn gorgeous now! She looks like a pretty pretty eurasian girl. I like (Y). Had lunch with cheebai, charlotte and claire then met vee after. Headed down to island creamery for i-screeeam. Was fucking awesome talking about all the rubbish we used to do in sec 3, IMVU and how we got everyone addicted to it, how bhai kept flying round some building in circles when you're talking to her which was damn irritating, habbo (i am so ashamed), how we used to disturb people inside, and my stalker. I can't believe we used to do shit like that! Hahahaha. But it was fun while it lasted. I just wish it lasted longer. Anyway, i'm gonna meet pandora tomorrow night! YAY. Haha, i'm so excited. I love you poop :) Don't forget to bring your camera, i wanna camwhore like mad. Probably heading to timbre saturday night and meeting azu for lunch on sun. Well seems like a great closure to my holidays. I'm looking forward to schoool on mon. Can't wait to see cool lasalleians. I heard o level results are out on mon too so good luck in advance to you guys! Especially you, I :)

2010-01-07T04:05:00.002+08:00

If eyes could speak

I wouldn't have to talk

If Eyes Could Speak - Devon Werkheiser 

2010-01-05T02:42:00.001+08:00

Its true. Sometimes things get so bad i just want to disappear from existence. Life throws a lot of shit at you and God knows i'm not the strongest of people because there's a limit to how much a human being can take. I really wish things were different for all of us. I wish my family wasn't so broken up. Yeah, we might seem normal but that's only face value. Never judge a book by its cover right, that's what they say. I miss the times i could go a day without fighting with my dad. I miss the times i would see my mom because now i feel like she's missing. I'm close to my sis to an extent. I don't know how much she really cares for me but i hate it when she leaves because i feel so alone. I'm beginning to wonder if they would even care if something happened to me. I hate how i'm never able to open up to people, even when they ask me what's wrong. Instead i pretend like everything's alright. Throw them off scent by saying something ridiculous or changing the subject. But then again hardly anyone i know lends any of the two ears God gave them, so why bother. Okay maybe a partially deaf ear, but then again their shoulders are off limits. So what's the point? I might as well confide in my wall. Then i chance upon people like you who act like you're their everything one minute and then on to the next person. The kind of people who say they "love" you, act like they care about your problems, you put your trust in and then they're gone. Its ridiculous that people you trust the most are so fucking temporary. I don't like people who throw the word love around. If you love me, you love me for my flaws, you don't go running the second you find out i HAVE them. You love me even if i roll down a fucking hill and cripple myself. You love me even if someone puts a bullet in my face and half of it is gone. How many people can actually tolerate that?

There's only one person who really meant it and as far as i know, she's not here.

Oh boy, i need to vent this negative energy somewhere else. I wish school would start faster so i won't think so much. Okay nevermind, i think i'll put it into more running. That way i'll let off steam and get fitter. Two birds one stone- awesome. I'm going to disappear for awhile. I need a break anyway. I'll still be on twitter and tumblr though if you bother with my life.

2010-01-04T15:21:00.005+08:00

Omg, fucking sad video. The lyrics just make it even sadder :(

2010-01-03T06:07:00.006+08:00

Hey you. You're not the person i'm hung up on, neither are you the person whom i spent months moping about, but i realized how much i miss you. It just suddenly hit me how much it sucks to not be a part of your life, which doesn't have to be the case because we used to be close. Can't understand why i let myself drift apart from you. You're the only one who cared enough to bother doing sweet things for me, calling just to see what i was doing, telling me you loved me and not just for the sake of saying of it. I used to be so excited to wake up to your texts every morning, sleeping next to you, waking up in your cold cold room with the scent of your perfume on my shirt and telling myself you're the only person i wanted to spend the day with. Sometimes i hate myself for not being able to choose what's good for me instead of someone who basically treats me like shit. On fire. I need to stop being so superficial. And if only i could bring myself to commit instead of losing interest. But i also hate the fact that your mind is so impenetrable that i can't figure out what you're thinking. I don't know if i'm intuitive or if people are just plain obvious but i can usually guess what's on their minds but not yours. When you talk about other guys/girls, it makes me fucking jealous. I just choose not to make a big deal out of it. Now i don't know whether to like you or treat you as a friend. Whatever, i just want to see you. And i want my fucking hug. 459 ♥

Wow if you got this far, i apologize for boring the hell out of you.

2010-01-02T07:29:00.003+08:00

2010

2009-12-31T01:22:00.003+08:00

Earworm is genius, i swear upon my boobs.

Haha, hey guys i'm back from my trip! Did lots of shopping, walking, eating, gym-ing. It was awesomeawesome. Can't wait for my next vacation. I am definitely gonna try and get tickets early for LA. Gonna spend my new years eve with bests tmrw night. Catching fireworks at siloso. They are the ❤ man i swear. Anywaysm, gonna go out for a smoke now. Havent smoked in 5 days. Killxcore. And then go fuck with my sims. I played it on the trip there and i made two roommates fight over a girl, now they hate each other. HAHA. iJesus.

Hi

2009-12-25T04:41:00.001+08:00

What's the difference between tiger woods and santa?
Santa stopped after 3 ho's.

Merry christmas you shitbags!

Im using the lenovo to post this and its bloody irritating cause i keep misspelling everything. My sis is using mine to watch despo housewives. @!#$%*. Sonya rai get off my laptop now or i'll eat your face. Anyway just got back from red dot with a, karen and nat awhile ago. It was bloody awesome i tell you. Headed to Play initially but it was so blah, so blahblhablahblalhadhfablah, literally not one soul on the dancefloor so we went to park ass somewhere else instead. And fucking good game cause red dot had some lesbian party going on.

Long story short- made new acquaintances, danced with a bunch of hyper chicks, drama, banged my head on a table, drama again, got monkeyed until my phone dropped and nearly got stomped on. Aye new one somemore you know. Precious cargo :( So yeah thats about it. The cab ride back was pretty fun too. Driver was being all retarded and christmassy. Okay la my xmas eve was good enough. Sorry guys i couldnt reply your text wishes. My batt died on me and all the texts that got transferred to a's phone weren't saved.

Oh yeah im going on holiday next week! But i'll be back in time for new years cause ive awesome plans with awesome people. 2010 will be a good one i know it. Ok it better fucking be. So fast one year has flown by. Just like that. Can you believe it? Maybe cause ive been having fun. NOT. I admit 2009 has been one of my worst years but ive also met some really great people and had some great times so i shant be ungrateful. Bloody fuckkajhfasdf i just pressed the enter button again i hate this computer. Ok i shall end here. I dont think ill be sleeping again tonight so im going to find something else to do. Goosebye.

Squint.

2009-12-23T17:27:00.005+08:00

I can’t talk to you anymore, it’s not that I am mad at you, it’s just that when I talk to you I realize how much I love you and when I realize how much I love you, I realize I can’t have you and that makes me love you even more.

Bye im off to a christmas party/chalet/bbq. I'll see you when i see you. Merry 1/4 christmas!

2009-12-22T02:57:00.001+08:00

Hi. I feel drained. Went out practically everyday for the past week. I just need some sleep. And not at 6 in the morning... how... my body clock. Headed to vivo just now to shop for xmas presents with my sis. Supposed to meet fahmi there but the feller pangsehed me again. Found some decent stuff. Aye person youre going to love the wrapping paper. Its cute. I want to shop like mad okay i tell you. Mad. I want the zara leather jacket, the gap shirt, band tees all okay how. I am going to slim down first i SWEAR. Thats my new year resolution. No xmas turkey, no fruit cake, no fucking log cake. I am not even gonna touch the cranberry sauce for the turkey. Do i sound like a fag? Nvm i dont care 45kg by jan, on ok its on.

Talking to robert on msn now. God i miss my classmates. The random smoke breaks and the nonsense and everything! I will see you in approx. 2 weeks :) For now i am damn b to the o to the r-e-d. My baby isnt online. My entertainment isnt online. I think ill go watch an episode of the hills and go sleep. Going to shop for more gifts and far east tmrw. Sayoz.

2009-12-20T18:48:00.001+08:00

Bittersweet life

Lonely, stubborn and complacent
You have insisted on leaving me here
Writing the same song I started last year
Lovely conjunctions and phrases
Plays on a few words that you never meant
I must have misread all of the signals you never sent

It's a bittersweet life
And it's leaving me A-OK
Bittersweet life
I have loved and lost my heart along the way

Maybe I could still hold you
Or you could call if you feel so inclined
Please take your time locating whatever you're trying to find
And maybe it's time to let go
But I'm too scared and I'm so unprepared
How do I forget every moment in time that we shared

It's a bittersweet life
And it's leaving me A-OK
Bittersweet life
I have loved and lost my heart

It's a bittersweet life
And it's leaving me A-OK
Bittersweet life
I have loved and lost my heart along the way

I'm calling your bluff
I have toyed with the idea of burning your stuff
This is so rough
And it's as if deserting me wasn't enough
Well I've had enough
I'm calling your bluff

It's a bittersweet life
And it's leaving me A-OK
Bittersweet life
I have loved and lost my heart

It's a bittersweet life
And it's leaving me A-OK
Bittersweet life
I have loved and lost my heart along the way

2009-12-20T01:55:00.004+08:00

Holy shit i haven't started studying for my BTT.
Have some discipline woman.

2009-12-19T03:28:00.015+08:00

"Better to have loved and lost than to have loved and won a loser"
-Anonymous

Amen that.

Hey, today was cool. Well initially the afternoon was quite blah and bloody suay. First my phone switches to emergency mode. Then when i reach home, my dad locks me out on accident. (Yes my dad doesn't trust me with keys cause he thinks i'll lose them which i probably will) And then right, i can't call anyone so i'm just stuck there. Damn pissed already right? Then my phone miraculously works again and i receive fucking annoying text messages by angry people. Okay, ignore. Then i call my dad and go "eh wtf i need to meet my friend at city hall at 9!" and he just goes "oh okay wait for me to come back". Nice, now gotta wait for the turtle to come back to let me into my own house.

Okay anyway. Met A and *special lady* afterwards, who turned out to be not so special after all. Not. even. close i tell you. Eww. Haha, if thoughts can get you karma, i think i'm going to hell. Ditched her (I KNOW, FUCKING MEAN. NOT MY IDEA) and headed to 1twentysix for drinks. Nice place. Good atmosphere and everything. Bumped into a friend's friend who works there. Considering i'm damn slow and all i was like "eh? ehhh? isn't that...?" But yeah overall good experience. It was packed though. Couldn't find a seat for the first half an hour at least. Slacked around at macs then cabbed home. Fucking ass tired now but i can't sleep. I'm excited for thurs. Play play play. Please don't back out guys its gonna be fun. Okay i'm gonna try and sleep now. Night.

2009-12-17T03:21:00.009+08:00

Hey guys. I like my new tumblr layout :)
Tumblr is wicked awesome. My new found addiction.

So true to my previous previous previous post, this week has been fun. Spent mon with N, C and V. Lunch, new moon, starbucks, orchard central, 313, dinner @ wisma. Bumped into gail, xuebs and eliza. (Hi gail, bump into me then start talking malay, wtf. I miss your nonsense. Meet soon okay!) Anyway the movie ah... aiyo. Even snails crawl faster. Basically i only have 4 words for it. Bella. Betch. Edward. DIE. Die you godforsaken na bei chee bai, die! You dont know how happy i was when his ugly face started cracking ok. I was like HAHA KNN YOUR LIFE EDWARD. DIE NOW. Don't worry jacob, if that whiny do-nothing bitch doesn't want you, i will.

Headed to suntec with J cube, S, varun, oliver, jy and taufiq today. The plan was to shop for xmas presents but obviously plans dont work out for us. It was fun though, cept the fact that im incredibly drained. Oh yes, i am going to strip for 10 people on xmas! So exciting. Expect a giant sexy looking box at your doorstep on xmas day people. Cept G, im gonna wear a sari and strip for her and the oldies at a community center.

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And now is when i tell you that sharmila rai never means a thing she says.

Gonna meet the usuals tmrw for bbq. Yay so fun. This means i get to spend the week with all the people i love most in the world :) Probly gonna head off for holiday after the 25th. I need to get away for awhile. Enjoy life away from reality and then come back home to hell. The world doesnt end in 2012, it ends on jan 11th 2010 for me. Okay im getting tired. Its 3:20am. I still need to buy helium balloon tomorrow. Speaking of helium balloons i see my cookie monster floating in the corner. Haha so cute. Kbye.

2009-12-14T23:04:00.007+08:00

We were the kings and queens of promise
We were the victims of ourselves
Maybe the children of a lesser god
Between heaven and hell

Heritage 1981

2009-12-14T01:31:00.006+08:00

I need $.

je m'ennuie

2009-12-10T17:01:00.006+08:00

I had to, i just had to. I love my mirror. So magical :)

So my week has been pretty much occupied by lauren conrad cause once i start on the hills i just can't stop. I told myself i would go running at 7 yesterday but i ended up hills-ing until 3 in the morning. Tsk tsk tsk unhealthy. I'm not going to touch mtv.com/thehills until i go for my run today. Oh yes this saturday's gonna be exciting cause i'm signing up for my license! Finallyyy. I can't wait to finish up all this trial test, BTT, FTT crap and do my practical. I honestly can't picture myself behind the wheel but who cares. Fun fun fun. 10 bucks that my instructor is going to pissed off as hell. Wanna bet?

Anyway i apologize for my life being so incredibly boring. I'm rotting here while SOME PEOPLE still have school and are INSANELY BUSY. *cough* I honestly don't know how to entertain myself on my own so yeah i shall wait like a good dog. I trust that my life from next week onwards will be quite entertaining so i'll update then.

See you soon.

Crawl

2009-12-09T17:05:00.001+08:00

I love cassie ventura ttm!

Tsk tsk.

2009-12-07T00:41:00.006+08:00

I've made a promise to myself. From today onwards, no looking at her facebook profile, checking if she's online, reading her msn pm's, talking about her to anyone and absolutely no thinking about her. I'm going to do a fucking good job of getting over this one (y)

I changed my phone yesterday!!! Using the omnia pro now. I'm happy with it :) Its proven to be quite a good phone actually. Initially i was worried about it being to business-y and i never was good with windows mobile phones but its alright. Two thumbs up.

So today was a short day. Headed out for some randomer's house party at night. The only good part of the day is that i'm stuffed now, after starving for 4 good hours. Actually every day seems like that nowadays. Sleep at 6, wake up at 3 in the noon. Basically my day consists of 9 useful hours. Gotta find a way to spend those 9 hours wisely for the next month. And i can't believe its been a week since the party! It honestly seems like it just happened yesterday. I want to throw another one in the future considering i had so much fun. To new beginnings :)

My agenda for the coming week is pretty good too i must say. A's chalet tomorrow night = booze booze booze, meeting L and S for drinks, maybe Play thurs night (hoho hot girlsssss) and movies with N, G and C friday night. Probly gonna catch new moon even though tons of people say it sucks. Gotta see it to believe it dey. Yeah so the week sounds pretty fun. I'm just happy i've got my life back!

Oh i see a pweety girl on tv who looks like I!!!

Anyway, i found out something about someone today. I won't say much. Once bitten twice shy. But i guess we're not that different huh, you and me? The only difference is i was willing to change for you but you will never change, period. Well too bad. I see now why i never really wanted to take you seriously.

Love you, Gaga

2009-12-06T00:31:00.003+08:00

2009-12-03T23:58:00.009+08:00

I haven't found mine. Well actually i thought i did but i guess i thought wrong. The truth is i'm sick of feeling unhappy and missing out on life because of one person who doesn't know, or probably won't care even if she does. But i'm not going to bring it up. One thing i'm proud of myself about is being able to suffer in silence. Not that i don't like confiding in anyone but seriously what's the use? As far as complaining goes, its not going to change anything.

Anyway 8 months is a long time to be hung up on someone. I don't mind being friends but a part of me will always regret liking you, for ruining what could have happened in those bloody 8 months. I've met people with potential to be girlfriends, not mindfuckers (no offense), actual girlfriends but i couldn't pay any attention to them. I miss the feeling of having one. Its been almost 2 years since my last actual relationship and i miss having that and you never gave it to me.

But honestly even talking to you doesn't make me feel the same as it used to. I used to be so excited to receive your texts and answer every single one but now i can't be bothered to. That's why i really really don't want to waste time anymore. I feel like there are many people out there who are worth more of my time. I dunno, maybe you'll never change or can't change and i feel quite bad for you more often than not. Anyway its good to know you're happy and STAY HAPPY. After all you put me through i think i'm too nice to you sometimes. But its okay, i forgive you for everything and i'll always be here if you need a retarded random friend :)

2009-12-01T22:41:00.004+08:00

I can't believe you just texted me.

So anyway on a happier note, i will be changing my phone soon! My plan just ended which means i can finally buy a new phone after 2 years of putting up with this nbcb motorola phone. Deciding between the N97 mini and the omnia pro now. I know i used to be crazy over the htc touch pro 2 but i got over it, so. Help me decide! I can't pick which one i want.

2009-11-30T19:25:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, thanks for coming yesterday! Sorry it was kinda effed up but i still had fun and hope you guys did too. Omar, mogan, andre and dani, buggy riding with you at 4am was so much fun. Chin hong and sasi, thanks for bringing the good stuff! The rest of you guys who took care of me, especially you Gurleen, thanks for cheering me up. I really appreciate it. I don't know what i'd do without you. We'll continue this conversation next time. Love you all to bits :)

Bitter quotation

2009-11-26T15:58:00.006+08:00

"Love is when at 2:30am you wake up hoping that your dream was reality" -Unknown

Untouched

2009-11-25T16:34:00.001+08:00

So like i said, i cleared out my space, made it clean and simple. Removed the tagboard and unnecessary clutter. I figured if you want to talk to me you can always talk to me through facebook or msn. After all this is just a place to vent my thoughts and frustrations. Hit me up on twitter and tumblr as well! I post stuff on there that i don't want to post here. So yeah.

That's all i wanted to say,
Goodbye.

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2009-11-23T22:03:00.013+08:00

Hey world. Read through my archives today. I think i'll be doing a massive blog clean up soon. Delete all the old posts that remind me of past times and some that don't make any sense. Also planning to use a clean and simple blog skin cause i'm going to be too busy to keep fucking around with templates. Besides that, i don't have much other updates. Have a big surprise planned tomorrow. Hope she enjoys it :)

death cab

2009-11-19T22:51:00.008+08:00

I have to face the truth
That no one could ever look at me like you do
Like I'm something worth holding on to
These times I think of leaving
But it's something I'll never do
Cause you can do better than me
But I can't do better than you

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2009-11-14T15:02:00.018+08:00

Don't talk to me. Don't even act like you're interested cause i know you're not. You'll never change. I don't know why i keep waiting for that day to come. I never meant anything to you and i'll act like you didn't either. I know i deserve much better than you anyway. Keep up your fucking little mind games if you want. I'll ignore every word. I hope karma turns around and bites you in the ass, stupid motherchod.

And if it happens, don't come looking for me like always.

5 days

2009-11-13T00:46:00.003+08:00

ARGH SHARMILA RAI ASSESSMENT ON TUESDAY! GET OFF AND DO YOUR WORK!!!

11/11

2009-11-12T01:21:00.008+08:00

"Why should I hold on?
It's been five years, don't need one more"

Everything seems to annoy the fuck out of me for some reason. Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day. I wish i was homer simpson cause he's such a happy retard. Okay but i'm satisfied cause i enlarged my gauge to an 8. Whoo! Hung out with D, S and gang at city hall till late then headed to meet alien life form A and alien life form B. Secret society, ftw. Felt bad for not staying at ch longer but i was really pissed off and just needed to go home, relak one corner and finish up my work. Sorryyy guys! Party time. We'll hang out proper :)

And thanks j, for listening to what i had to say. Felt good to finally get it out. Been bottling it up for some time so it felt really good to confide in someone for a change. A problem shared is a problem halved right? But i guess it was bad judgment on my part too. Time to grow some self respect. I really want nothing to do with some people.

Gonna sleep now. Afternoon class tomorrow and staying back after school to finish up some work. Gonna be a tiring day ahead. Fml.